And yes I probably am sounding horrible but I posted something that really spoke to me today when yesterday I was very close to ending everything.
Haze.. you know I'm ex-religious. Our home is like the United Nations of Religion (one ex-Catholic, one Christian, one non-believer, and two Muslims.)
I'm so sorry you are feeling so desperate, and wanted to post this prayer for you in case you don't know it. You don't have to be Catholic to recite it, and I often see thanks for it in newspapers.
Worth a try?
Keep your head up.
St. Jude’s Novena
“May the Sacred Heart of Jesus
be Adored, Glorified, Loved & Preserved
through-out the world, now & forever.
Sacred Heart of Jesus, pray for us.
Saint Jude, Worker of miracles, pray for us.
Saint Jude, Helper of the Hopeless, pray for us.”
Say the prayer 8 times a day for 9 days.
It has never been known to fail.
Publication must be promised.