Am so glad to be back posting on MW and being able to interact with you all again.Have not been to well for 2-3 weeks have tried to post once or twice but had to give up. I to suffer from depression like Aileen and when im not well I'm useless in every way. I am supposed to take medication regularly but im against that really as i don't want to become dependant on it. So I probably suffer more than i should and have to end up taking the medication anyway.
Caroline, I'm so glad you're feeling better now.
Can I just say though, that, like you, I was against taking medication for a very long time, and when I was prescribed it refused to take it on a regular basis, but was finally forced to after I got so depressed that I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital where I remained for seven months, and that isn't something I would wish on anyone.
So my advice is - persevere with the medication before the depression starts to take hold, because (a) contrary to popular belief anti-depressants aren't addictive (unlike drugs such as diazepam), and (b) you might not need to take it for a very long time - maybe two years - although some people have to remain permanently on a maintenance, i.e. very low, dose even after they have recovered in order to prevent a reoccurrence, depending on what kind of depression they have.
Also the reason that I still have spells of depression has got a lot to do with factors in my life which are beyond my control, plus the fact that I suffer from agoraphbobia, but I don't doubt that if I wasn't taking my medication things would be a lot worse. In fact the dosage has been increased recently, so I'm waiting to see how much that will help me.