No - you can't force me to believe, but if your belief brings you comfort, then who am I to argue. The important thing is that you are invested in your faith. That's grand. I have no desire to take that from you. Not in the business of denying anyone their faith - unless they are hurting others.
I don't know about invested as much as clinging on desperately at the moment
At the end of this month it will be 3 years since my back problem started up...and I'm now in more pain, with more worry and fear and less independence than I've had since I was a small child.
there are times when I wished I could just not believe, or ignore and walk away from God. But He is there. He is real and I know that I would regret a life lived without God. But at the same time I just can't understand at the moment and I now get more about the agony of Job and various Psalmists when they went through trials and hard times.