^So Laundry, as an atheist, do you feel every question of yours is answered or like me, do you have some doubts in your belief?
I've done a lot, lot
of questioning and studying on my beliefs and understandings of why
we are here and the universe is here in the way it is. I've always done this from a young age, I was pretty much always thinking about things like this to myself as opposed to having a proper social life :p
I would say I am actually at a point where I'm more or less happy with all the answers I have now. I don't have any of the 'big' questions left to ask myself, I've reached a conclusion to all the questions I was striving to answer when I was younger. It's somewhat depressing to actually be in that state of mind though though because it's like I've surmounted a pinnacle of understanding and I don't feel like I'm going to gain any further knowledge that I really care about. Of course there are plenty of scientific questions left to answer but I don't particularly care about most of them, I have always looked more at philosophical questions and 'the bigger picture'. Naturally they are tied in with science but I think you can grasp an understanding of the framework of things from a top-down perspective without understanding all the internal pieces of science from the bottom-up.
If you were to talk to some scientists or philosophers I think a majority would say it's not actually obtaining the answers that they really care about, it's the search towards trying to find those answers that drives and motivates them. I don't think I'm a typical atheist in that sense, I doubt many atheist at all would say they feel every question of theirs is answered or that they are happy with all the answers they have. To reach that point is a goal that a lot of people are perceptually aiming to touch but speaking as someone who is actually there you could say it's perhaps over-rated. OK yes I have a certain pride and contentment in a way about achieving all my answers but I no longer possess that drive to think and puzzle about things, I've lost that purpose. Like an Olympian that works their entire life to obtain a gold medal, then when they finally win it they're asking themselves "what now?".