[Hazybear]

I was popping pills every 2 seconds
I would hug you back but I don't think you need my germs
Hows the back?

Hmm lets not start taking about viruses, Mark might freak

Ugh crap, still signed off and now totally dosed as highly as the doctor can make me on these medications and still sore and the only step up is morphine However, I'll get there...wherever there is eventually. Just trying not to freak and stress about the future just now as that won't help
Also got a orthopaedics appointment in 2 weeks, so we'll see what happens then

[Hazybear]

Yeah, only thing is if the Ortho's refer you elsewhere it could take aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaages
You will get there eventually
Any more physio?

Yep still getting physio, actually seeing her tomorrow But there's only so much she can do. the muscle pain does seem to be very much a result of the constant nerve pain so we work on loosening my muscles and then the nerve pain tightens it up again

Yeah that's the thing...my doctor has warned me that unless ortho can do surgery they're not that interested So we'll see, doctor wants at least an MRI out of it, more to rule things out more than anything else. Not sure where they go after that, maybe pain management but their operating at about a year from referral to first appointment at the moment

[Hazybear]

MRI's are fun....to watch, don't really fancy having to lay there for about 7minutes in a big donut but at least they are doing something productive and an MRI isn't cheap so the don't hand them out willy nilly.
Yeah the NHS is a little shocking at the minute with all the budget cuts and it sucks major ass for everyone

Yeah my chief worry is that they turn around and just tell me to deal with it. I did 2 hours of chatting to parents/childminders and playing with kids at toddlers this morning and was completely wiped after I can't keep a thought in my head for more than a few minutes and am really forgetful...but need the meds or I'd actually pass out from pain. So physically and mentally can't work so can't end up left in this state, just being told to stay on meds
^This is my big worry and I'm terrified of it becoming reality, so bit  at the moment over it

[Hazybear]

They can't just leave you when the meds aren't really having the desired effect. Though, they can become quite addictive so slowly weening you off

Oh yeah, missed about 2/3 doses one day because I went out and didn't take them with me...was physically sick by the end of it probably partially pain as well. Last time I felt crappy when they brought me off the tramadol, and that was a smaller dose and I've fot the others as well Yeah they got me on full dose of Gabapentin now 1800mg a day

Ah well

[Quackers]

Yeah I guess if you keep moving up in the world you might not wanna change.  But something I learned when studying my second choice of career in was "always go with your instinct" which now I'm thinking ... personally, might not be the career I've been doing the past few years.   I'm going backwards to what I wanted to do when I was 16, ish.  

Now I'm working towards two careers and hope my first choice takes off to see if it will be as good as I've dreamed it to be.

[Hazybear]

not again! I cant really say much as i cancelled on folks tonight bt felt crap- shame as my friends tiara 4 her weddings arrived so was going to go ott on wedding chat oh well had a night in with the dog and csi ny instead

[boogers]

I think my bladder may burst. A gallon of beer after this evenings suicide train nonsense. Made it to clapham for the last train and some **** has vandalised the toilets.

This is very very bad.